Loobies journal

Well its been a while again!! I am making a promise to myself that I am going to try and update more often.
Nearly Christmas again wow!! were does the time go?? I am trying to get organised half way there done most of my shopping online thank god for studio. Studio is an amazing thing to have for use that haven't heard of it its a catalogue that sells pretty much anything that you could want. I have been off work for a week now with liringitis don't know how to spell it I have had no voice which my Fiance has been loving lol.I am going back to work tomorrow start at 6am boohoooooooo going to get hell for being off cos I have been off like the first time in 6months but still going to get into bother....it just makes me angry the fact that I got sent home on the Tuesday that day I was really ill made it in that day and then finally got a docs appointment on the Friday that's how long you have to wait here before you can see a doctor at that point when I seen the doc I was worse I had a high fever and lost my voice and bad throat I felt like shite to be honest with you. Still don't feel great but have to go back. I really hate my life sometimes just cos I am stuck in a dead in job were everyone there more or less couldn't care less about anyone but themselves I hate all the bitching and back stabbing that goes with it. I just want a better life that's all. Rob he's been doing the tattooing for a year now and he's been doing well with it but he can't move any further forward with working from home till we find a bigger place so we will try and do that next year cos we need at least a 3 bedroom house. Once we get the business sorted then I can see what I can do next with my life I keep saying to myself that I am only in asda for a stopping gap which I am, i'm scared though I don't want to end up retiring there god that's a horrible thought!!
Well gonna go the now x

Hey Guys hope all is well with everyone! Well really not much has changed. Well first off i'm still working away in asda been there for a year now, its going ok pays the bills. My brother well hes not very good hes been ill ever since my gran passed away, me and him used to be close but not anymore. My mum she was getting better for a while there but i think my brother has gotten to her. I've started doing the Avon for extra cash been doing that for a while, msde not bad money, going to a Lady's night in a cafe and they have asked me to do the Avon so i am doing that. should make not bad money. Some of my friends are coming and some work friends. Anyway gonna surf for a bit anyone who wants to leave a comment please do so new friends always wwelcome. PS can't wait till New Moon comes out me and my friends are going to see it. xx

Just a quick note to let use all know that use should all go out and buy the book Twilight! what a great read i can't put it down! can't wait till the films out over here.

Well today i just can't move myself out of bed a tall, just can't seem to get any energy these days to do anything.
I am back at work tomoz after being off for a while, cos i have been ill again!! i am falling to pieces argghhhh.
I haven't been up to much apart from Xmas shopping, just about there with all of it, which i am pleased about, still need to get Robs present.....not got enough pennies saved for it yet, i hope i will have the money when i get payed just before Xmas but i might be to late, i was going to get him the Guitar Hero World Tour Bundle which i have looked up on the compare prices websites but so far its coming up at the same price, would love to get it cheaper if i could...i doubt it though.

I am going to try and write in my Journal as much as i can, because lately i have been neglecting it....well i am off to see what Community's to join on the spot light thingy.

Bye for now x

I was speaking to rob the other day and i asked him out straight sbout how i was feeling sbout the way that one of our so called mates wss acting towards him...as i could just tell that she liked him....so i asked rob and he said yes he did notice it and thats why he backed off cos she was getting to clingy.
I knew it myself..but i just wanted it confirmed....it was really pissimg me off for months...btw the girl that i am talking about we met her through robs we cousin...but we don't really talk to her now either not just beacuse of that..its a long story.

Anyway i am away now feel free to comment if you wish.

I haven't been up to much just working away in asda in the home shopping department, which means early starts for me...which i don't actually mind..i start at the same time as rob so i guess that is a plus as well..since we work in the same place.
We are going away in August with two of our friends to Loch Lomond camping which will be a good laugh..looking foward to it..but not looking forward to the rain...boohoooo.

Quite a lot of our mates have all gotten engaged this year...so me and rob aren't the only ones...so there is going to be lots of weddings to attend and Louise is going to be skint skint..lol
Me and rob aren't really thinking about getting married anytime soon..i would love to but everything else seems to be a priority at the moment....we want to save up and have a big wedding and a unique one at that.
We are getting new windows fitted tomorrow so i am looking forward to that..i live such a sad life..teheheeee..well thats all thats been happening in my life at the mo.

Bye guys and until next time
Tatty

Well what a day yesterday was, was probably the best and worst day of my life....confused well let me explain.
First of i am no longer a student......woohoooo shock horror this is the story....i went into college yesterday with no problems sat and listened to the head of department natter on about legislation ohhhh how boring, anyway we had previously sat an exam on making up a care plan, which i thought i done well with, however this was not the case, the lectuer basically gave me back my paper and told me that i had remediation to do, i said no problem i will, well i thought she was going to let me do it the next week, but nope she wanted me to do it there and then, i was taken a back with this, but never mind.
I tried my damn hardest trying to re write bits but still could not figure out what to put, so eventually i asked the lectuer, during this time people were doing their papers as well, so she would not allow me to talk, so i quietly asked her what she wanted me to do, because some she had marked and some she hadn't, so this got me confused. It ended up that apparently i had not covered these areas a tall.
So i continued staring at them and all the while people writing away, i felt like such a Knob head...so eventually i got up and said to her "look i don't understand what this says" pointing at a really bad hand written comment, she told me what it said and then i still stayed there until i asked her i don't know what else you are wanting me to add cos i have answered everything as best i could, she said that i need to write things for Health and Safety Factors, i said i had no clues what else...until she said "you should know about health and safety factors because you learned them at the start of the course, and if you can't do that then that just shows you, that you can't do it" i said " well maybe i should just give it a by then" she said "well thats a fail then you are not even trying" i said this was not true," she said that this is an HNC and the volume of work that i am handing in is not HNC level" i said i am leaving i have had enough" she said " well maybe that its for the best, because your placement has been on the phone three times and they don't know what to do with you" i felt like shite when she was saying all this, i got all my stuff gathered and she said asked me to go out in the corridor and she spoke to me she said " that maybe i am not ready for this course because of everything thats been happening in my home life" i agreed with her about this, i said to her "i said from the start that i didn't want to be in the HNC in the first place because i have been out of education for 7 years" she said "to be quite frank with you i don't think you would of managed the NC level" what a COW!!!!!!! saying that that is soooooooooooo FUCKING NASTY!!!! i was in floods of tears at this point and she said "Louise have you been to see the doctor? because i think you are depressed" my response to this was "god i hope not".
Off she frog marched me down to the nurse (college nurse) the nurse spoke to me about everything, asking how i felt about my mum and just about everything else......to cut a long story short she phoned for an appointment for me to see the doctor that day.
I went back to the class room to collect my stuff and my lectuer was like let me know how you got on, ( am i fuck letting her know how i got on,shes done enough damage for one day) so i asked her if i could please say good bye to everyone but she would not let me, but on of the girls said bye to me which was nice.
I went to the computer room to see if i could find my mates cos they passed their test and i found them, however my neighbour had not started a course so she shouted me over, so i spoke to her for a while, when finished my mates were gone, i was gutted cos i wanted to say good bye before they went back up to the class room, however when walking down the stairs my mate coughed and i knew it was her cos she had been coughing a lot yesterday, so i shouted her name and there was no answer so i was just about to go down the last set of stairs when i heard her say "who's shouting on me" i shouted that it was me, so i found them and told them what happened they where shocked and pissed off with the lectuer, they said that she should of helped me instead of pushing me out the door.

Ohh well never mind, i guess i am not academical a tall, so now i am just going to work in my wee job and pick-up extra shifts and see what happens.

Ps the doctor that i went to see was lovely she was sooooo down to earth she said that she was covering the other doctors maternity leave, so shes there ubtil may, she spoke to me for ages and actually listened to what i had to say, instead of fobbing me off, she said that she doesn't think i am depressed but just have far to much on my plate, she said that i just need to work and make a list and write everything down that i want to do and see what is first on the list and focus on that, she said that i am not stupid or a loser...cos this is what i kept saying to her, she said that i just haven't found what i am supposed to be doing, she said that i will when i am ready.

Anyways thats enough typing......phew lol

Please comment if you want....love to know what other peoples views are....bye for now guys xxx

Nothing really to report guys, had a blast on valentines day...took rob down to hamilton and bought him an easel to help him paint with, then bought him baggies and then treated him to lunch in subway, was a really good day.
Rob treated me on the friday because he didn't get his wages till then, so he went into glasgow after work (bless him) and bought me a fairy lamp that is just gorgeous i love it!! it sits at the side of my bed, he also got me a Betty Boop alarm clock,hmmm i guess he is trying to tell me something....lol then he treated me to the pictures where we went to see Jumper which was amazing!!.
Went to work yesterday and had an all right time, starting to get along with my boss,had holidays still to take so I got them sorted, so off night weekend and then in the following then off the next woohoooo!! so we are hoping to go to Rossy with my neighbour and her friends for a weekend, should be good, but if that doesn't happen we are going to go up and see robs we baby niece that we haven't met yet, she was born on the 6th of Jan and we still haven't seen her,(for the people that haven't read my journal before) she stays to far away they stay 200miles away, her name is Jodie she is gorgeous seen loads of pics of her, but its not the same.
I am soooooo addicted to Bebo on it all the time, came across an old best friend of mine, she used to be such a really nice person, never drank anything like that, but then she started hanging about with the wrong crowd and turned into a right cow, and was really nasty to me and she stopped hanging about with me or I stopped hanging about with her, can't remember, but i thought its about time that one of us should make a move, so i added her, so we will see if she adds me back, watch this space.....
Bye guys ps got college tomoz and really can't be arsed got loads to do for tomoz arghhhhhhhh!

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Hi guys, sorry its been a while since the last time i updated.
Well first off i am at college now, studying an HNC in healthcare and its going well, i am hoping to complete a year and then get into university to do my degree in nursing, but we will see.

I have been on placement for the past 2 weeks, in a hospital and loving it!! although i didn't make it in today because i have had diarea (can't spell it lol) i didn't want to spread it round the ward so i had to stay away, i am gutted as well, cos thats me missed a day.
I have been really stressed a lot of hard work doing this course, my problem is trying to find time for everything, because i am at college twice a week and twice a week at placement so the only days that i have to myself is a friday and a sunday cos i work on a saturday.
I feel that i am not giving my all in this course that i can do much better than im giving at the moment, i failed my biology exam but only 3 people in my course passed i get another attempt at it next year.

Well hope to hear from you guys soon bye xx

Hi guys its been some time since i last wrote here, well i'm still looking for work, not got anything yet, each day is getting harder to survive in this mean world, but i know that we will et there in the end.
i have good news, i am in college starting in august woohoooo i was orginally going for an access course to nursing, but when i went for the interview the other day to get in, the tutor took one look at the qualifications and said that the access course would bore me as i have quite alot of experience, so she offered me a place on the hnc..health care.I could not believe it, this was great news!
The only problem is i have studied before at hnc level and i will not get my funding paid for the course so i will need to pay for it.
It is installments that i will need to pay, but i need to do what i need to d in order to get on with my career, least next year if i get into uni i will defo have my fees paid as its a nursing course.

Well thats all i have to report

Hiya guys! well for the past 9 days i have been on holiday, i have been up to see robs family, away up in the highlands.
I had a great time was so good getting away from here and letting my hair down a bit, and forgetting about all the worries that me and rob suffer at home.
It wasn't really a holiday though cos we where up seeing the family, the main reason that we where up there was because it was robs wee nieces first birthday, she is so big from the last time i saw her, shes walking now and in at everything she can get her hands on...lol.
There was a birthday party for her where she had a big large caterpillar that was like a bouncy castle, which you went inside and there was playing balls and a chute and loads of other things, all the kids loved it.
Rob loved it as well he was helping all the kids getting safely on and off, plus secretly he was the biggest kid there, cos he was getting shots on it as well.
While we where on holiday there we went to inverness for the day robs mum janice took us as i had never been there before, we booked onto a tour bus that picked us up at inverness main street with other tourists, from there we made our way across to lochness, where we went on the boat that took us to a castle arquard castle i think it was called, was such a lovely day there was no clouds in the sky and it was warm as well, the scenery was amazing!
We stayed at the castle for a while did the tour then went back on the bus to the "lochness monster experience 2007" im sure you can guess for yourselfs what monster it was, that was good as well,finding all information about "nessie"
From there we got the train to where we parked the car then went to a chinese restruant for dinner, was an expensive day but well worth it.

The rest of the week we just caught up with family, and found out good news that robs sister is expecting again, so happy for them.

At the end of the week janice took me and rob to glenfinich distillery where we did a tour of the world famous malt scottish whisky, was very interesting plus at the end of it we got to taste it teeeheeee. Rob purchased mustard whisky which i thought would be horrible, but we had it on our hotdogs the other night and it was really nice.

Well thats all thats been happening so far, still jobless registered with a local agency that will give me some temping work to keep me going until i find something more permanent.

I will try and include pics of the holiday on here.

Well guys what a great start with really good news, rob passed his fork lift test, thats him aloud to operate fork lifts.
Rob was so over the moon when he passed, he had been training all week at work which included a theory test, he got top marks in the class for his actual practical test!!

After finding out that he passed, i invited people up to have a couple of drinks, well it never meant to be a couple of peeps, just the way it turned out, i had already invited clare up for dinner, then rob told me that he had invited his mate up fordy, then we invited martin, so ended up with more people.
We had a great night, rob and fordy where playing guitar hero, they love that game, me and clare where just having our usual natter, about nothing,lol.
Then clare got a bit too drunk and ended up throwing ice at rob, she obvisouly was messing with the wrong and rob won the fight,,teeheee.
Later on as the night went on clare got out of control and ended up kicking rob on the back, really hard once again she was just carrying on, but was very in toxicated, it resulted in rob having a really sore back all weekend,to top it off she had another go at rob when the guys where sitting watching a music video that had topless dancers in it, she was not happy about this and the guys refused to change the channel, so once again rob just happened to be sitting next to her and she flicked his ear. Robs in bed just now , he is really in pain and feeling sick with the pain which is not good.
I hope he gets better before we go on holiday, we are going away at the end of this week.

Im a bit peeved at clare to be quite honest with you, i know that she did not mean it


Well im gonna leave you guys with a group photo that was took that night, clare is not in it though cos she took the pic.

Hiya guys, well not alot has been happening, my thoughts where right i did not get into asda, got a letter in yesterday telling me, ohh well i did everything that i could but i guess that was not enough.
I had my interview for sainsburys on tuesday there, went well when i went into the canteen to sit and wait there was already a girl sitting waiting to go in, she was very nervous she said to me that she is not gonna get in so theres no point and was about to walk out the door, i managed to persuade her to stay, which she did.
I went in when it was my turn, i thought it went well, the lady that was interviewing me was really nice to me, i guess she was routing for me to get the job, with the things that she was saying to me.
I had to answer questions and i had to say which one was true, i did well with them, the lady once again helped me out with them, the hours that are available are 16hrs but there is always overtime if i want it, which i will, the postion thats available is check-outs.
I have not heard from them yet, the lady said that it would be this week sometime that i will hear from them, fingers crossed for me guys....

Well thats all thats been happening really, going away on holiday to robs mum and dads away up in the highlands in elgin, so im looking forward to that i go on a week tommorow, i was worried about cuddles (my rabbit) cos my neighbour that was going to look after him can't anymore cos she is going way on holiday the same time as me and rob, so i managed to get my best mate clare to look after him.

Thats all i have to say guys....

Just a quick update guys, to say that i don't think i have got into asda, ive not had a letter to tell me that, just that rob came in fom work and i told him that i have still not heard from them, he said that i don't think you will, as he saw alot of new starts today.
My brother also confirmed it as he said that someone that we knows brother has started with them and he was in my group selection so thats why i know that i have not got in.
In an up note i have an interview with sainsburys tommorow they phoned me today, so perfect timing in there part.
Im using the last of my money to get there tommorow so i hope its worth it, well fingers crossed for me guys..until next time.

Hiya guys Just a wee quick update to tell us whats been happening.
Well first off i went for the asda group selection, it went well was very different from the last time that i done it.
There was 18 of us that was there, that was a big group selection, normally there is only a handful of people.
All the people that where there, got called in as pairs, so we all had partners which again was different.
My partner was an older women she was nice enough, but she was quit shy and would not contribute in doing the talking, so i had to do it, which i did not mind, i hope it did not come across as me taking charge, cos that would blow my chances. The lady wanted me to do it though, but again i hope that its not blowing her chances as she did not want to take part.
It is really doing my head in that they have not been in touch, i don't know if thats a good thing or a bad thing, but im sure i will find out soon enough.
My old boss was at the group selection as well, she was one of the managers there, she knows me and she knows that i am a good worker, i just hope she remembers.
I have applied for other stuff in the main time, but we will see, all i know is that i need a job pretty quick, cos me and rob are getting stressed.
Me and rob where invited to clare and alans last night for a drink, which was a goodnight was great catching up with everyone, rob fell asleep cos he was knacked had been working really early in the morning, was not that drunk to tell you the truth.
I woke-up today and i was feeling really sick, but i managed to talk myself out of it, after that i slept like a baby for another couple of hours, then got woken up by rob, saying "oh no!" we had slept in for to go the east kilbride, which is a shopping centre, he wanted to go to get sofies (robs baby niece)birthday present she will be one in 1st may, can't believe it, i remember when she was born, just like yesterday.
Well thats all thats been happening, thanks for reading guys.

Ok where do i start, well first off i went for the interview last week for subway, that went well.
I got a phone call the other day to say that i had been selected for a group selection with asda, i really want the job with asda as i have worked with them before and they are a good company to be with, plus when i become a student i need for them to be flexible for me as, i will need to have my hours cut, subway will not be able to do that, well least i don't think they will.
Now the fun begins, i got a phone call yesterday from subway, saying that the manager would like to meet up with me, to make her final decison, i said that was fine and i agreed to meet her today.
I thought about it for a quite a while and thought, i am going to phone them back and and say to them can i meet up on the wednesday instead,(to buy me more time with asda,) as with subway they are wanting someone to start straight away. as she did orginally say wednesday, or the monday, but i picked the monday as she did not tell me what time on the wednesday, the wednesday is when i have my group selection with asda, but the group selection is not until late afternoon, the subway meeting is early morning.
When i phoned subway up today saying that i could not make it today, the manager was fine with me but said that she was going to make her mind up today, but cos i am there top choice, she said that she will hold off until she sees me, the job thats available is 35hrs, which is great!
It is just such a mess, arghhhhhh!!, what do i do? do i take the job in subway and still go to the group selection at asda? or do i turn down the job in subway and then could end up with nothing argghhhhh!



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Hi guys just a very quick update to say to us that i went to for my interview with subway today, i will find out if i have got it either the end of the week or the latest next week.
I got interviewed by two managers from different stores, the two of them i would say that they are round about the same age as me.
One of them said that they joined the company in september and now they are a manager, i could not believe that, i thought it would take longer than that to be a manager, i guess she must be good at her job.

Hi guys, its been a while, well i have finally jacked my job in, i have had enough from them the amount of things that i have had to deal with over the years with that company, i could write a book on.
I plucked up the courage today, once again they where mucking me about, its such a long story, i don't know where to start.
Well first off i was off work there for 7 weeks with anxiety and stress disorder, due to work related issues, i had an interview with one of the top bosses to see if there was anything that they could do for me, to get me back to work, so i said to them that i really need the training as i have hardly any, so i managed to get the training.
I started college last week, was great just being there and learning, its giving me a taster for when i attend there as a nursing student next year, the training course was really good and very interesting found out a lot of things that i did not know.
I met loads of new people that have just joined with the council, and cos i have been with them for two years they where all asking me for advice what its like, but i just said to them that they really need to find out for themselves.
To cut a long story short i was at college all this week monday to friday 9-4, very tiring, but the one thing that was helping me thorugh the training was known that i had the weekend to rest, well so i thought.
How ever it did not work out that way a tall, ended up with a phone call today at 10am from one of the seniors that do i know that i am working a backshift today? i said no i did not know that i am working a back shift as i thought i would of had the weekend off due to being at college all week and start back monday, i said that i would need to phone them back as i have already made plans.
I had a long talk with rob and we both decided that in my best interest it would be better all round if i left, so i phoned them and told them, now i have to write a letter explaining my reasons and thats me, i am not working any notice either, you are supposed to give them 4 weeks notice, but why should i? with the amount of crap that i have had to put up with.
Lucky for me i had already applied for subway a couple of weeks ago, and they had phoned me last week to invite me to an interview, but i decided then that it would be best that i just stick with my job, but as you already know the shit hit the fan as they say and i had enough, so i phoned subway up to see if the offer was still opened and it was, so i have an interview on wednesday the post is for partime monday-friday working 4 hrs everyday, weekends to myself, so its not all bad, so wish me luck guys!!
Im still looking for a job as i am keeping my options opened